I’m struggling with something y’all. I’m about to be 25 and I haven’t had a boyfriend yet. I pretty much been single all of my life. I “dated” someone a few years back, but, I wouldn’t call him an ex. Just to be completely honest, he wasn’t boyfriend material.
I see a bunch of statuses about engagements, marriage, and babies. I want all of that. I truly want it. But, I’m not in a rush to be engaged or married. I want to date. I want to get to know someone on a deeper level. I want to be able to introduce him to my family (mostly my mom because she’s the most important besides God). I know that I want this. I don’t feel that I’m “good enough”. I am not the slender, big-booty (I live in Georgia so a lot of men want those Georgia peaches), or the one who wears make-up type of girl. I am not going to say never, but, I don’t want a guy to date me because of my outer appearance. Don’t get me wrong, I know that as a woman, I need to keep myself groomed and looking like I give a darn.
I’m not a ugly girl. I know this. Yes, I got a few extra pounds on me. I am not a Georgia Peach (as portrayed on the Real Housewives of Atlanta). I’ve been in Georgia for a few years now and I see how men look at women. My big sisters do get love as well from these men (most of them have a Peach booty). It sounds like I’m forcing on physical appearance and certain assets. That’s all that I see and hear a lot of men talk about. I see the photos of women that are appealing to them.
My question now is what do men see in a woman besides her assets? Are they concerned about her attributes? Can they accept that not all women will look at the video vixens, models, TV personalities, etc?
Personally, I am ready to have a boyfriend. I wanted one for a while. I just haven’t been confident enough to embrace this challenge. I have to remember to be patient and wait on God for Him to send me someone. However, I don’t want to be with someone who’s with me because I drop some pounds. If you can’t accept me at the weight I am now, then I don’t want you when I’m a bit slimmer. I feel how men judge women, we should be the same when it comes to choosing a guy for us. (That sounded harsh, huh?). It’s true though. I feel that as women, we are judged way more about how we look than they are. (A lot of guys that judged-stated that oh my she’s ugly or she’s fat don’t look all good their selves).
I, Christina am happy about how she looks. I love the woman that I am becoming. I workout not because I hate my body, but because I want to live for a long time and enjoy (really enjoy) life. People consider me to be weird, odd, awkward, all of the above. I don’t care about these words. I’m who I am. I’ll find (or God send me someone) who will like and love me just for me (no B-S, no changing me).
I honestly want your opinions, advice, etc. because I am stuck on this. Thanks y’all!